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Summer guilt

Friday, June 15, 2012

One of my biggest battles in life is one that wages for me daily: productivity vs. relaxation. It never fails... I WANT to relax, but then when I sit down to take it easy, I feel guilty for not doing productive things. I'll start to watch something on t.v., and then I'll think, "Well, I'll at least throw a load of laundry in." I mean, that way I'm doing something, right? 


I'm not one who is able to just sit idly. Maybe this is why I suck at beaches and pools... I'm just doing nothing. I should be doing something... anything. 


Now that I'm tackling the summer bucket list, I'm finding that more and more, I'm trying to knock off the productive stuff first. If I can clean the spare room, I have something to show for it. But it's a double edged sword, you see, because I feel guilty if there's a day that I don't knock something off the list. Now THAT is stupid. I recognize this... I really do... but letting go of I-just-want-to-sit-around guilt is tough. 


I think part of that comes from teacher guilt (boy, this post is riddled with guilt). I've been asked no less than ten times, "So, are you getting a job this summer?" Ummm, no, for so many reasons. 


1. I work my @$$ off the other ten months of the year. 
2. It's hard to get a job you only work at for two months. 
3. I already have two other jobs (Jazzercise and freelance writing).
4. Frankly, I don't want to. 


But it's THERE. The teacher guilt. The whole, "Oh, you're so lucky you get two months off." I AM lucky I get two months off. But I hate having to justify why I want some time off. Hence, guilt. 


I'm trying to let go of the guilt, and I'm hoping a few days out of town where I can't do anything "productive" will help. I'm looking forward to enjoying the company, Michigan, and some much needed relaxation.:)

3 comments:

  1. You don't have anything to feel guilty about. You did your job and now it's break time - that's how it works, this year & every year until the law ever changes to year round school :) Do what you want to do & what makes you happy! Try to relax & enjoy this time.

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  2. Excellent advice Sherry. Yes, to heck with working all the time. You need to enjoy the time and relax a bit. Give yourself permission to just relax and have some fun. We all know how hard you and all the other teachers out there work the rest of the year. Love you bunches. Enjoy your trip next week.

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  3. Thanks, ladies! I'm trying hard to just let it be. I seem to do better when I'm hanging around others... when I'm on my own, I feel like I must. Do. Something! The rain helps though... not so much productivity with a morning like this!

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