A JOURNEY IN RUNNING, LIVING, LAUGHING AND LOVING

Ugh. Just ugh.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

This morning started off cold -- 16 degrees. So, I did what any dedicated runner would do... I bundled up and started to run. Approximately 3 minutes in to the run, it became clear that the roads were in NO condition to run on, especially when running next to a major highway. I returned home, defeated. No problem, I thought, I will go to the gym and get on the dreadmill for seven miles. Except I was volunteering at the hospital at noon and there wasn't enough time to go to the gym, run, drive home, shower, and go to the hospital. 

I didn't get my long run in today. And I feel supremely shitty about it. 

I don't know why this is bothering me so much. I can do my long run tomorrow, a shorter run Monday (no school!) and be back on track for my run on Tuesday. This is not a disaster of epic proportions. And yet I feel like the worst half marathon trainee ever because I will now have TWO rest days in a row. I swear, I can almost picture my muscles losing tone and my speed flying away from me. It's a horrible feeling. 

Did you read the post about me being a control freak? Yes? Well, I am also a creature of habit. I like routine. I dislike change. Monotony? Okay by me! And this is the first Saturday in... maybe my whole training that I'm not getting my long run done. I don't know if I'm going to feel better until said run is done, but that won't be until tomorrow. Sucks. SUCKS. And yes, I'm also well aware that if this is the WORST thing that happens to me this week, it will be a seriously fantastic week. But, I'm grumpy about this right now. Therefore, I write. 

So now I will go be productive and write my new freelance assignment and do laundry and see friends tonight and hope that this shit feeling disperses. Side note: Anyone watching the Olympic Marathon trials? Those boy runners will run their full marathons in the time I hope to run my half. Eeeee. 

3 comments:

  1. I know what you mean. I feel the same way. I had my grandbabies overnight & couldn't get up and do my long run this morning. I felt lousy because I ran the 1st 1.5 miles on the treadmill, got too hot, and there was quite a time lapse while I tried to dry up the sweat to change into outdoor clothes & change shoes & get my MP3 player & get running again outside for another 6.5 miles. It's supposed to be a long run, not a gap between! I had thoughts of punishing myself into running another 1.5 miles outside just to "make it right" but it was wayyyyy too cold.

    In all honesty, you could skip this run & you would still be absolutely fine for your race & you would still do well. Deep down you probably know that. Do what ever it takes to make you feel better. You are doing a great job in your training. You "did" go out there & try - most people wouldn't have even bothered. So, a high five for your effort! You have come so far & you are so close. I am gonna be soooo mad if you don't post a picture of you and that medal when you get it!!! Did I tell you I love medals? I only have 2 but I have a plan for some more :)

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  2. It's the worst, isn't it? I swear, those things we put in our own heads are the WORST. The cold is just too brutal to run in right now.

    Thank you for the encouragement, Sherry! You're such a positive person! I hope someday we can meet in person and show each other our medals! :)

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  3. We can sometimes be our own worst enemy. Oooohhhh...a medal party? Sounds like fun!

    I don't know if I told you this before but this is my "big pipe dream" for the year, 1/2 in May, full in October and the Disney Goofy Challenge 1-2013. Goofy = 1/2 one day, full the next & you get 3 medals!!! I said if I can pull off the Goofy Challenge & get those 3 medals I think I'll just wear them all around my neck for the next year...lol

    A girl's gotta dream right?

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